White Valentine's Day

14th February is the St.Valentine's day, this is the day females whom send gift to the males.

14thMarch is the white St. Valentine's day, this is the day that the males return the gift to the Females.( at least, you fancy her or she is your wife or girlfriend)

For me they are just the same, they both are Valentine's day and i don't have boy or girl friend yet. However, the very first person receive my chocolate was "her"-girls I don't remember who was the very first her but I'm sure this was a her and later on we did the chocolate exchange means as long as peoples bring in chocolate we share and give this to different other persons whom you don't hate her it was quite sweet, I did so too very few girl send or received chocolate from their boyfriends however, I'm not the one I don't know any boy from school 1st we were all girls in class. 2nd boys are just airhead for me at least it waste of my time, I can't say one for everybody but not for me I didn't hate all the male at least I like some the male teacher because they will talk serious somehow and not talk rubbish like the young teenager boy some of the young teenager boy try to talk with me like they are talk to the young girl mode usually they will end up with losing face...so there was not many peoples would came near me.

However, for the weird people as me although I don't close to people or always be my own I still always like the some of the people around for me the people I like it's not important if they don't talk to me or do anything for me of course if they would like to do anything to be friend or closest I'm very welcome but the truth is not many people could stand with me or stand until very late I don't like my friend saying farewell easily short like a seasons or I just called this relationship in "Seasonal friendship"

I believe if I having a relationship like a seasons with somebody I will further look at them from distance, talk to them by passing around randomly... as long as they are happy and fine, it's all enough for me, at least when I don't see them anymore I will able to continuous to be alone so I don't like to over protective by somebody... if there is nobody anymore, I will be feeling very uncomfortable and take time to stand myself again

The way that I like to send peoples valentine's chocolate perhaps is the only way to memorize or tell the people I like, " I fancy you, so be happy" such of feeling like this

Also, a punishment for myself

14th March, I decide to sent chocolate to the people I like at this year St. valentine's day chocolate...for the reasons the that I choice to do this in white valentine's day this year was I missed the 14th February, the valentine's day which everyone know well of and i don't want to make this in the day we just go back school also I believe everybody was busy and spend all their mind with the new school and i was busy too. For another reason, this may the late year that I spend in this school for the people I know or myself perhaps we may never meet each other anymore who know what will happen tomorrow? For example, peoples whom may always ignore what happen around and they always missing something or somebody whom may very important to them but someday they disappear and through this was just illusion and become doubt: was that really happen? Did somebody really was there? Just like you was in dream... questioning yourself again and again

Anyway please be nice for your another half, if you really like them very much.